My hands held nothing but a tiny speck of dust. Colours surrounded me, lights guided me. I felt electricity running through my veins. The smallest details unraveled themselves in front of my eyes, exposing themselves nakedly to me, welcoming me to their world. Patterns formed around me as the whole room lit up in colours. Sometimes it was dark and sometimes it was bright. Never had I seen anything this beautiful. I went outside and looked at the view and it was just spectacular. They all moved in a constant pattern. The world was alive and it was breathing, hard. It sort of felt a bit overwhelming. I sat down on the table to catch my breath but as soon as I did that, the world breathed harder in my face. It caught me off guard to the point that I couldn't just look at one thing anymore, I just stared blankly ahead processing the whole entire picture. I ran to the bathroom, I needed to breathe and be alone. Calm down, I whispered to myself. My vision started to blur out on the sides of my vision, then I saw white slowly colouring it's way into my world. I stopped breathing. Frozen. This tingling sensation was buzzing from the tip of my toe, rocketing up to my head intensely as if something inside me was about to explode. Only two things I felt at that particular second, being pulled away and fear. I felt whatever it was on the other side reach inside me and touch my heart, soul and mind. It was as if I was being poked by a needle at every centimeter of my skin. Blood was pulsing through my veins. This is fucking crazy, I thought. This is unbearably and intensely fucking mad. I gathered up as much courage and will to force myself to stop this before it was too late, before I experienced something I knew I was definitely not ready for yet. Finally, my head managed to tilt a bit then the feeling was gone. Relief showered over me but of course, everything was still moving around me.

The more you think about it, the more you realise that everything you thought was solid and unquestionable isn't anymore. What you thought you believed can no longer be justified, all your beliefs crushed because you discovered a whole different realm of reality. A reality that can not be explained, that has touched your heart so strong. This realm is whispering to you "nothing matters" and you see the words spell out in front of you and it's breathing, the words are breathing, the walls are breathing, everything is breathing and then you think to yourself, how can nothing matter when the entire time i've been living i've believed that? How can anyone who's always had something to hold to, just let go and turn their backs against something they trusted? Well you can. Because like I mentioned before, the more you think about the more you realize, anything can be lie. Plus, who the fuck is anyone to know anyway?

No explanation was given but yet I understood why. Nothing made sense but it did. Slowly I saw everyone else crumbling into their own world, flicking something in their head. They weren't ready for this yet. They're not ready to be tricked into something they can't understand. I closed my eyes and ignored their sounds of insanity, of craziness. Patiently waiting for the love of my life to come and caress me. Only he matters. Only he does.